I suddenly lost it

Some of you may not know this but I do suffer from depression and it has been one of my problems for many years.  The past couple of months I hadn't been taking my medications on a daily basis due to forgetting to take them.  I didn't realize that its been since October my last refill.  I didn't think it was that long from my last refills.

I started thinking about our cats back in the states and wondering if they are okay.  I started to worry. I know they are in homes rather than the Humane Society but still it would be nice to know how they are doing.  I lost all contacts with the new owners because I deleted all their emails an also all the past emails.  I didn't want to come off as being a pest or stalker or whichever.

So I started looking at all the kitty pictures which I had taken of the three of them over the years that we had them since they were kittens.  I guess the neighbor's cat made me feel a little comfort to know that she comes around every day.

But I still felt that emptiness.  A loss.  I thought, what have I done?  But I tried to gather up money to bring them with us but nobody offered to contribute only one person.  Very sad situation when you know that you are about to loose your pets.

I started watching some kitty videos and some really were cute videos and made me laugh, but there were some that I had watched that were devastated and I really started getting emotional and started to cry.  Especially the one that is along with this post of the cat family.







Now the past couple of days when I think about the cats we had given away I think about those kittens who didn't have a chance to live.  I cried and cried.  They should had some more time.

Last night I was in bed.  I started talking to Craig about the cats when all of a sudden I bursted out crying terribly and I couldn't stop crying loudly. I lost it.

Earlier today I told Craig that my depression is falling down hill.  I need to get my medications again and start taking them without forgetting on a regular basis.

She Is A He

Today Miss Cleo came to the window cill at our kitchen.  Craig went to the back door to bring her in.  Bumped into the neighbor next door who was smoking a cigarette.  The neighbor started laughing because Miss Cleo just came from his house.  Well turns out that Miss Cleo was not a she but a he.  His name is Bink and he belong to the little girl and her father down the street.  Our neighbor next door told us that Bink kind of rules this neighborhood because he goes house to house to get in.  I think its kind of funny.

Bink is very smart kitty.  He knows when to go to the bathroom because he meows at the door to go outside for a while and go pee or take a poop.  He also very playful loves playing with bottle caps.  Always curious too whats in the next room behind the closed door so he jumps on the handle and tries to open it with his paws.  LOL

Happy Holidays

Yes, the holidays has come and gone.  We went to my aunt's house in Derry to spend time with the family for the day.  It was fun and had good times there.  My uncle Joe picked us up which was really nice of him to do that.  Brought cookies and gave them to him.  Gave the rest of the cookies to my aunt Maggies.  

New Years Eve was just okay.  We didn't really do anything just stayed home and had a few drinks and listened to music.  Sadly, our Internet Service Provider was an outage for about 36 hours from NYE 3am to New Years day 3pm.  So we were basically bored and tried to entertain ourselves with just music and the few drinks.  Luckily we had internet access through Craig's ipad and that kept us both busy as I worked on websites offline.

Miss Cleo the cat

Since moving into our new apartment we saw a black cat sitting across the street on the sidewalk. I went to get a piece of ham from the fridge and placed it on the floor outside.  She ran across the street as we closed the door.  We went into the bedroom and watched her eat until she finished it.    We went into the kitchen and there she was at the back window looking into the apartment meowing.  I opened the window and she came into the apartment.   Ever since then she has been visiting us every day, sometimes she spent nights over.  We have to be careful because we didn't want to get caught by the management who we are renting the apartment.  On the lease says NO PETS.  So we are being very cautious about the cat.  She had to belong to someone because she was very well groomed.  Flee and tick color with a bell on it.  Didn't seem there was anything wrong with her.  She seemed to be very well trained since she meows to go outside.  

It was lousy over the Christmas holidays we think the people who owns (Miss Cleo - thats what we had called) left her outside while they gone during their vacation away.  I thought that was ignorant and rude, so she stayed with us during the cold and stormy times.

busy stressful ..2017

Its been a while since I last blogged on here.  I can't believe its been a busy year of 2017 for us with moving and everything.  After our first 6 months and realizing things were getting awkward with red tape and nobody was helping us out with benefits.  I think they thought we were looking for the benefits only, not realizing that I am Irish descent and also we are married so that must had taken into account.  We went to 3 solicitors to help us.  The last one suggested us to move over the border of Northern Ireland as there was less red tape.  So we did and started looking for apartments over the border.  

July 10th we found a place in Letterkenny, Co. Donegal which is about 30 minute drive away from Derry.  We started struggling with moneywise because we had been paying for everything, leaving us with barely any money left.  We have a kind friend, Mark, from London, who gave us a gift of 200 Euros in total (100 Euros for each transaction) through paypal.  We hadn't met him and such a very kind man to do this for us.

We started getting things slowly and gradually like getting our PPS (like our Social Security number from the US), Craig got his immigration card that would help him stay, he also got his passport stamped so he could stay until August 2018 then we have to return to the Garda station to get him booked in for another year.  Two more years and he will be here legally as a resident with me.  We also gotten our prescription and medical card for copays.  We also gotten our names down for a Council house (so we could have our own place) so we don't have to live in private housing.  Sadly it will take about 2 years waiting list.  

First 5 months and we had to get out of the apartment due to Craig's mobility issues since the apartment had stairs and the toilet was on the top floor.  Not very good apartment for someone like him who has mobility issues.  So in order for the people to get us started on the waiting list, we had to find a place that is ground level and we would stay there for the 2 years until our names comes up for Council House.  

The management company that we were renting from found us a ground level apartment so we moved into there Dec 8th, the day of Craig's birthday which was just up the street from us on the mountain top.

We are now waiting for HAP, which are the people who are going to help us with our housing benefit so we would have a reduce rent to pay rather than the full amount, and because we broken our lease and complained there were issues with the other apartment, the management had to get us a better apartment.  So he used the money which was our deposit from the last apartment for our first month rent here in the new apartment.  We still have to find a way for the deposit for the new apartment.  He said it was okay to pay installments but the with housing benefit they could take care of the deposit.  Just have to wait for the letter through HAP.

So that's the update that we have been going through at the moment.  We are enjoying the new apartment.  Much bigger place too.  More space.